Beloved

Reasons NOT to love me:


1. I’m hell in the morning. I’m not naturally beautiful in any sense of the word. I even have to work on my inner beauty

2. I don’t forgive easily

3. I can complain A LOT

4. I crave sympathy and tend to seek it out too often

5. I conform to be what I think people want or need me to be, especially when it comes to the boys because I’m terrified no one can ever love the real me- flaws and all

6. I HATE conflict which means I can’t stand up for myself whatever the case may be. I let people use me but I’ve been known to use others for my personal gain (usually when it comes to boosting my own ego)

7. Authority figures scare me so its hard for me to talk to them

8. I long for a serious relationship but I still have major issues with commitment

9. I’m scarred, on the inside and out

10. I’m superficial and vain

11. I’m can be self-depreciating to the point where I make myself feel worthless

12. It’s hard for me to open up to people but when I do I’m easily hurt by the person I trust

13. I want someone to constantly listen to me but it’s hard for me to REALLY listen to what they are saying

14. I am easily overwhelmed

15. I like to take the easy way out of things, especially when it comes to facing others

16. I long to be needed and wanted, which so far I haven’t encountered anyone who wants/needs me in more than just a physical way so I’m dealing with those wounds to my heart.

17. I’m not “Good” at any one thing I’m average in a lot but I don’t have one specific talent that I can say I’m really good at.

18. I can be possessive and jealous

19. I’m messy and disorganized

20. I’m completely and utterly indecisive

Yet despite all that through Him I am made perfect and whole.
I am His Beloved.